Out of Control: How My Addiction Almost Killed Me

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In my own mind, I was just risk taking, using the money as a leverage to make more, before putting back what I was taking out.

He is now studying to be a counsellor, aiming to help people rid themselves of the demons that once almost destroyed his life. Now, a club is a big community and there would have been people in the club that had their doubts about wanting me back. He described his gambling addiction as "so destructive" that he would "descend into a dysfunctional world".Conor Meyler replied with two points before Darren McCurry levelled the match in the sixth minute of injury time. Cathal McCarron: 'I want to get across how destructive addiction actually is and what it has done to my life. The 2008 All-Ireland winner, who hit the headlines over a gay porn video and his chronic gambling problems, had pleaded guilty to engaging in threatening and abusive behaviour at Anglesea Street in Dublin city centre on May 12 last.

I used to justify it on the basis that, given it was Daddy’s money, I had an entitlement to some of it. If I didn’t have it, my father became the easiest resource for me to get it, to feed the habit after I had blown every penny. In no time, he had already blown half the money he was given for having sex with another man in front of a camera. Cathal McCarron's tail is a sad one of a desperate man, but he brought himself back up and is now studying to be a councilor. For me, I would say this to anybody as well, if you say you are sorry and you really mean it, then that should be enough.He also asked the court to note that the footballer was recovering from a serious gambling addiction.

But the reason I wanted to do it was to get across how destructive and bad addiction actually is and what it did to my life. It is a secret game, a private shame and we will never know if someone is in real trouble until it is too late. It was definitely written with Gaelic football fans in mind - many long descriptions of games, rivalries, etc. At the weekends, Barry and I would often pour bottles of vodka down the sink and fill them with water. He had put himself through all that to fund his gambling addiction for a few more hours and, in his own words: "If I was still out there, I could've killed somebody.The flames from that bonfire of bad blood were still visible two days after that game on the back page of the Irish News. I was ten or eleven when I first began to notice how much damage their relationship was doing to us all. You are thinking how to get out of a stranglehold you’re in, while he is thinking about how to counteract that move if you make it. I needed to be able to pay for the place I was now renting, a classy apartment in the park in Dromore.