permission to feel

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my mind is so resistant to intimacy. I’m not sure when I became so closed off to the world. what a shame it is not to allow yourself to feel. to soak it all in. maybe that is the point of all this: to feel as much as we can until we can’t feel anymore. in our twenties, our senses this is a collection of poetry about love, loss, vulnerability, and connection. this book walks you through my personal journey of falling in love with my best friend and embracing my queer identity. this book talks about intimacy and teaches queer love and acceptance, through poetry. There are three parts: one for you, one for me, and one for us as a whole. The poetry tells the story of a person who falls in love with their best friend while simultaneously discovering who they really are. the coming to terms with being queer, both the experience and the realisation, as well as the acceptance that this may be her life. The fact that this collection of poetry may be read both as a story and as individual pieces is one of my favourite aspects of the book. Caution: the subject matter discussed in this book may be too intense or disturbing for some of the book’s readers. These include the following: I wanted to feel more at times, and other times I didn’t want to feel at all. I wish it went on and went deeper into the mind of Karlee. So, I am giving this 4.3/5.

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I’m sorry that I am so apologetic during sex. I’m just not used to someone being so patient with me. I guess I am insecure because it’s hard for me to get out of my head sometimes. so instead of saying sorry, what I actually mean is thank you. thank you for being so patient. thank you for being so dedicated to me and my pleasure. thank you for never making me feel uncomfortable or shameful. thank you for being the most beautiful, kind, and caring soul. sex with you is something so powerful, we send ripples into other galaxies. your lungs couldn’t take in enough air, and your eyes grew raw from the tears. this is for the strongest person I know, even when she did not see her strength. this is for the girl who never gave up on herself. the girl who never gave up on me. this is for her. this is for me. this is for us. this is for you. in the moments you spent curled up in a ball on the floor of the shower, waiting for your lungs to catch up with your need for oxygen. on the nights when all that you felt was sadness, when even being numb was too hard. on the nights you felt so unimaginably alone, so disconnected from yourself. on the nights you needed to be held, but laid on the cold floor instead. on the nights when your only companion was the pain in the voices of those who sang the sad songs ringing through your headphones. I am tired of letting fear control my life. I am not my fears. I am terrified of so many things. and it is debilitating. love. love. love. let love overpower fear. let yourself love and be loved enough to no longer be afraid.peak, then we slowly lose the gift of feeling. so we need to be better about embracing it all, seeing, feeling, and experiencing as much as we can… until we can’t. I’m sorry that I let you treat me like you did -like I owed you something. I’m sorry that you were what I thought I needed. thank you for showing me that I don’t need you. that you were never the one. I spent so many hours wondering if I had made a mistake letting you go. I was blinded by the butterflies and familiarity. I hope it comforts you to know that I found someone that treats me right. someone that respects and cares about me with all that she is. I hope you find happiness too. we learned a lot from each other. I learned how to value myself and what love doesn’t feel like. I used to wonder when we would be done kissing. I don’t do that anymore. I’m sorry that I didn’t give you clarity, I was too busy giving it to myself. I hope this letter finds you, in the stars or in a laugh or in a song that reminds you of me. that is all the closure I can provide. It has beautiful poetry that warms your heart. It's a good one for everyone dealing with sexuality and societal issues with love. Everyone should know that they deserve love and are loved. my heart is surrounded by golden armor. she is protected. she is fierce. she does not let anyone in. nobody gets to hold her. she wants to take off her armor, lose herself in your arms, but she keeps asking the mind for permission. and the mind keeps reminding her, that nothing lasts forever. so the heart sheds a tear and keeps her armor on, and turns you away because she is told to believe that this isn’t forever, but nothing is forever. that’s what makes life so magical and meaningful. the mind is so scared. the heart, a hopeless romantic. the soul, craving to feel:

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i got this book because tiktok would not stop giving me videos about the poems and what it is about. with it being about friends falling out and then becoming loves, i related to this. i annotated this for my girlfriend and it was so easy to annotate the relatable content. I don’t want to be anywhere aleyah is not. I have started to look for her in crowds. hoping that she will turn the corner. I dress to impress her. I hope that she notices the little details of my outfit and when I play with my lips. I get jealous when she talks about other girls, but I don’t feel like I will ever be enough for her.Also, if you’re not part of the LGBT community and fear you will not identify, just give it a try. I may not be part of the community but I had the chance to associate the authors feelings too much. Maybe not in my sexuality but in other aspects she describes clearly. so a LOT has happened since my friends and I moved into an apartment together (Aleyah being one of them). She told me that she has feeling for me after we had a drunken night of going a little too far. and it’s been a wild ride. we’ve made out a few times, and I’m definitely not straight (which never actually needed physical confirmation, but I have it). we have decided to just “vibe” and see where things go. I still struggle to make moves on her because I have spent so long trying to move on. I am terrified of myself and my sexuality. I just wish I could stop caring about what together (virtually) after and it helped. I have some introspection to do, and lots of self-care. I’m less afraid to be alone with my thoughts. they have calmed, no more anger. no more frustration. I still have questions, but I’m coming to terms with leaving them unanswered. she said no, there is nothing more that I can do. I said what was on my chest, and she gave me the answer I need to move on. I have to trust the timing of my life. I’m so proud of myself. Poems felt more like stream of consciousness that were later published without a second thought. After the first ten the motives started repeating themselves, I would have loved the author to have sat with their emotions for longer and actually make interesting observations. Further it would have been nice if she would have had tried to make it rhyme at least once. permission to love is a heart wrenching look at coming out in the modern day. It follows the author’s journey, but anyone who has experience as a queer person should be able to relate on some level. It isn’t the best poetry I’ve read, but I am glad I read it and I feel like it is a necessary work to be put into the universe.

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God, this book arrived to me in the right moment. The author describes everything so easy, just the way it is and the way I write stuff on my notes app at 3am. Is it sometimes sort of trying too hard? I wouldn’t say so. I insist, this is the way we all want to express our bottled up feelings in our phones, but we always end up by shutting down the phone because it never makes sense.This put together book of separate journal entries/story/poems feels so personal, and like I’m just having a one on one conversation with the writer. It’s deep, it’s meaningful and it’s for anyone that has ever questioned their own sexuality. Or anyone that’s had days where they didn’t know their purpose, and they might need a little reminder that they matter. this is the story of a girl who fell in love with her best friend- who then rejected her. so the girl spent the summer working on herself and exploring her sexuality…and then the friend confessed her love to the girl and then they took a chance on ruining their friendship to experience (potentially) what their love story could feel like. and now, the former best f; riends are queer lovers: navigating the ins and outs of being a queer couple and being in love. There are poems in this collection that discuss topics such as heartbreak, intimacy, and the relationships that we make with other people. My coming out as homosexual and my falling in love with my closest buddy are both stories that are told in this book. The author raises awareness and teaches readers about LGBT love and acceptance via the medium of poetry.

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I’m realizing that putting words to feelings is scary. validating and allowing yourself to be validated is scary. life is scary.what is the point of living if we cannot be true to ourselves? to fully trust our hearts to lead us in the right direction? on my death bed, I want to know that I gave my all to the people that I love. that I chased after my dreams relentlessly and fearlessly. that I showed up as my authentic self, day in and day out. I want to say that love was my best friend. I want love to lay with me when I take my last breath. I want to be love. I want to give love. and I want to be loved. you probably don’t know this but every kiss, every conversation, every cuddle, every touch with you, brings me closer to myself. loving you is quite literally teaching me how to love me too. sometimes I feel gross, like there is something gross about being gay. and then you touch me, you look at me, you kiss me, and all of those toxic thoughts slip away. believing in you, is believing in me. loving you, is loving me. supporting you, means supporting me too. you are my biggest supporter, best ally, best friend. you are exactly what I need right now. “we” are changing my life.